He responded jokingly, “I think I enjoyed sleeping with my sister then”. I responded, “Don’t you feel weird about this?” and he responded turning to look at me, “Beatrice, you are not my blood sister, plus no one is going to find out”. As we laid there, his ring-tone interrupted us and he picked up his phone. After speaking on the phone, he turned to me and said, “That was dad, they didn’t make the flight because your mom got an emergency call from your grandma. He is on his way home.” I immediately jumped up and started looking for my phone. I was worried about grandma. I called mom’s phone, but she was not picking up. I needed to call Niniola, but I couldn’t do that with Ehis around me. So, I turned to him and asked if he could excuse me. He looked really concerned and took my hands in his, he said “Everything will be alright. I am going to back to school tomorrow but if you need me to stay, I can change…”, I interrupted him and said, “I am fine. I can handle it, I just need to call Niniola”. He nodded and started wearing his boxers before heading out of my room.

After he left, I placed a call to Niniola.

Niniola: Hello dear

Me: Please have you heard about mama? I heard she is very sick. What is going on?

Niniola: I tried calling you, but your phone wasn’t going through. Mama is at our place. My mum is taking care of her. She is feeling better.

Me: Can I talk to her?

Niniola: She is sleeping dear. Don’t worry, she is feeling better. By the way, your voice is low. Is it because of mama?

Me: Yes and no. I am so confused dear.

Niniola: What is going on?

I explained all that had happened to Niniola. Then she asked, “This is serious Beatrice, I hope you guys used protection though? I responded, “No.” She was quiet for a while, but when she noticed I was panicking, she started to calm me down. She assured me everything would be fine but advised me to stay away from him. I told her he would be going back to school tomorrow anyway, so that would not be a problem. We chatted about mama some more and said our goodbyes.

I felt better after my chat with Niniola, and started cleaning up my room. I heard the door bell and headed to the door. It was Mr. Osas. He looked exhausted, and gave me a quick hug as he walked in. He assured me that grandma would be alright. He then reiterated the flight ordeal and how my mom had to go to Ibadan. He told me he didn’t know when mom would be returning.  We chatted some more before I heard Ehis’ footsteps, and immediately I told Mr. Osas I was going to bed. As I was leaving, Ehis was approaching. I hurried past him and headed to my room. I stayed in my room for the rest of the day.

I woke up to a knock on my door. I figured it was Ehis, so I decided to ignore. He knocked for a few seconds and left, then I got a message from him. “Good morning beautiful, I didn’t want to disturb you. I am going to school, and will be back by weekend. Take care dear, I will miss u”. I continued to lay in the bed until I heard the door slam downstairs.

I breathed a sigh of relief and was grateful I will not have to worry about running into Ehis for days. It was just Mr. Osas and I in the house. After some hours, I went to check if Mr. Osas needed breakfast, but he said he was fine. So, I went back to my room. Later, I prepared lunch, and Mr. Osas and I ate while chatting. The house felt lonely without Ehis but I focused on studying.

On Wednesday evening, I was in my room when I heard the knock on my door. I stood up immediately, I figured Mr. Osas needed me to help him with food. I opened the door and greeted him. He looked tired and asked what I was doing. I told him I was reading. He said he wanted to discuss an issue about mom with me and asked if he could come in. I responded with a nod and opened the door wider. He entered, and I went to sit on the bed. He came to sit on the bed too and was looking worried again. To break the silence, I said, “Mr. Osas, I am your daughter now, and whatever is between you and mom that is bothering you, I am sure God will give you the strength to resolve it”. He looked up at me and said, “Thank you, I have always known you are a very smart girl”. I smiled and thanked him. He looked at his phone and asked if I had my charger around. I stood and turned to get the charger. Suddenly, a strong hand pulled me with so much force and threw me to the bed. Before I could realize what was going on, I was struggling for my life with Mr. Osas violently holding my legs and hands. He ripped my skirt so quickly. Before I knew what was going on, I felt a sharp pain as he violently thrusted into me. I screamed with all my strength, but it was to no avail. And as quickly as it started, the struggle stopped. He stood up and sat on the floor saying, “Oh my God! I am so sorry. This is the devil. I am so sorry”. As I laid there, with my arms around my torn clothes in tears, I asked him to get out of my room. I continued to scream without listening to him until I heard the door close. I laid there in so much pain. I couldn’t think. I felt violated and disrespected. I wanted to kill him, but I didn’t have the strength.

I finally found the strength to get up and went straight into the shower. I scrubbed my body so hard, hoping to scrub off every touch of Mr. Osas on my body. The pain was unbearable. I sat on the floor as the water fell on me and cried.

I cleaned up my room and laid in the bed. How do I tell my mom her husband raped me? I know how much my mom loves Mr. Osas, this will shatter her completely. I can’t do this to her. I thought about telling Ehis, but I know he would be shattered to know that his father is a monster. This could break the whole family. I felt it would be selfish to break both my mom and Ehis’ heart by telling them. I didn’t even think it was a good idea to tell Niniola either. As I laid there in bed, there was a knock on the door again. This time, I didn’t bother getting up or even responding. Mr. Osas started to talk though the door. “Beatrice, I know you hate me now. I am very sorry. I don’t know what came over me. Please let’s talk about it. I beg you, please don’t break your mother’s heart by telling her. I am very sorry Beatrice. I promise you, this will never happen again. It was a mistake”. I didn’t respond and after some more pleading, he left.  I stayed in my room till Friday. I didn’t call or pick up any calls.

On Friday afternoon, I heard the door downstairs slammed and heard Ehis voice. I felt better knowing there was someone else in the house besides Mr. Osas and I. When I heard the knock on my door, I went to open it. Ehis was smiling and looked excited to see me. Suddenly, all the feeling I had for him came back and I became shy. I stared at him and he said, “I have missed you. I called and sent you many messages, but you didn’t reply. I will give you time, I know you still feel somehow about us”. I responded with a nod shyly.  Then he said, “I will be in my room” and walked towards his room. I turned back and closed the door behind me. I laid there, just thinking about how my life had changed all in one week.

That evening, my mom arrived back from Ibadan. So, I had to leave my room and mingle with everyone else in the house. During dinner, my mom was seated beside me and across from me were both Mr. Osas and Ehis. My mom was talking about how grandma was feeling a lot better and only missing me. She asked, “Beatrice, are you okay? You haven’t said much since I came back.” “Hun, did you notice it too?”, she was asking Mr. Osas. I turned to her and smiled. I responded, everything was fine and that I had been worried about grandma all week. Both Mr. Osas and Ehis were studying me. I avoided looking at both of them.  Mr. Osas tried to make conversations to me but I responded with nods and smiles. I couldn’t wait to get back to my room.

When I got back to my room, I decided I had to adjust to both men and avoid them as much as I could. My mum and Mr. Osas resumed work that Monday and Ehis was in school during weekdays. So, I was able to adjust being home alone every week. I decided not to tell anyone about all that happened.

Its been 5 months since that awful incident. I woke up doing my chores and started to feel dizzy. I had been feeling that way for weeks, but I decided to go the drug store and get some something to help with the constant migraines and dizziness. I entered the pharmacy, and the attendant came over. “Madam, good afternoon. What can I help you with?” I responded, “I don’t know, I have been feeling dizzy, nauseous and sometimes I have migraines. What do you think I need?”. He smiles, “Madam, that one is easy o. No vex, e be like say you get belle”. I looked at him like he was crazy and said, “You sabi your work at all? I still saw my period this month”. He smiled again and said, “Well, sometimes e dey happen like that. I think you should go to the hospital to check first. I don’t know which medicine I fit give you.” I started to panic and thanked him. I rushed out of the store and started heading home. So many thoughts in my mind but I was convinced I couldn’t be pregnant. I decided to go to the hospital immediately just to get the worry off my mind.

I got to the hospital and explained to the doctor about the dizziness. He responded, “There is nothing to worry about. It could be anything, allergies, or anything. Lets just do some test, so we know what to do”. He smiled, and I was relieved. At least, he didn’t come up with pregnancy crap unlike the silly attendant.  I had some money saved with me, and I was happy the money was enough for all they had to do.  I was told to come back 2 days after for the result. I went home feeling happy and relieved. The thought of the attendant saying I was pregnant flashed in my mind and I laughed out loud. “What a stupid conclusion” I thought.

I went to the University and found out that I had gotten admission to start school in September. I left the school feeling very excited and went straight to the hospital. The doctor greeted me with a smile and asked me to sit down. He has such a great smile, I thought. He began saying, “Ms. Beatrice, all the tests came back good. You have nothing to worry about”. I smiled and felt relaxed. It occurred to me that I had been holding my breath since I got to the hospital. He continued, “And Congratulations, you are 5 months pregnant”. He was smiling at me and I continued to stare at him blankly. Suddenly, it occurred to him that this must have been a shock for me and his smile turned to worry. I sat there terrified; my world was crashing. Tears started rolling down from my eyes. He started apologizing but I stood up and started walking. I didn’t know how I left the hospital.

As I walked down the road, it started raining. I am in a complete dilemma. I don’t know what to do with myself.

I am pregnant at 19, and the father of my baby could be either Ehis or Mr. Osas. Who do I tell? What should I do?

SHIIIT HAPPENS GUYS!